Being Transparent/Amongst Friends

I started this blog with the intent not to disclose my identity as I figured it would eliminate a lot of unsolicitated comments from people I hold near and dear to my heart but I realize we can't be free until we can truly let it all hang out.

So that's why I've been quiet.  I've been trying to figure out what I should say and what I shouldn't say but that not being true to the whole point of this blog.  Hey my name is Deidra aka the Glass girl.  I'm originally from Texas and have been in the DC metro area for eight years now.

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Let me just say that I really want to delete this post and go and hide somewhere.  Should I be disclosing my business to the world.

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OK.  I'm back.  That mental battle for self preservation is crazy. LOL.  My heart says wait a minute and my mind says let's go and do this.  Forgive the ramblings.

Ummm. Hey I will get back to the sex post, I won't run from it. Let's see. (Senseless Plug) I'm apart of a new Radio Talk Show called Amongst Friends.  What is Amongst Friends?  Its a group of friends discussing everything under the sun concerning SEX, LOVE, RELATIONSHIPS, and LIFE. This show will make you laugh, scream, gasp, think, wonder, and respond. Tomorrow's topic: Legally Separated? Is your plate clean? Can I really date you?  Listen to us live tonight at 8pm EST at

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STRONGHOLD: Sex is it's name!

Well. I've gotten quite a bit of feedback especially from the skeptics who think that the "Glass Girl" won't be transparent for real.  Well I'm here to tell you that I'm telling it all. So let's talk about it.

Sex.  I love it and sometimes I even dream about it.  I'll say this for all virgins that are reading. Keep ya virginity.  Stay pure. Wait for marriage because this struggle is serious.  The strangest things will get you all hot and bothered.  Like what?  Well like getting turned on because I've got a fresh revelation from the Lord or when the preacher sheds new light on a scripture or a nice smelling man or a man showing love toward his kids or a man confident in who he is.. All of these examples are things that I really enjoy so I guess its a honest reaction.

And I'm gonna tell you now. I'm not asking GOD ever to take my desires away. EVER. I want to enjoy sex and enjoy it to the fullest.  Ladies... Did you know that the main reason you have a clitoris is for PLEASURE.. You are supposed to enjoy SEX.  Yes ladies.. I'm talking to you - the old and young.  It's ok to enjoy sex.  I'm not gonna talk about the woman's anatomy right now, I wanna talk about this stronghold of sex.

This sex thing is a mighty strong thing.  I'll even say that in an attempt to not go out and sleep with the finest man who meets my physical expectations, I've often turned to SEX TOYS and PORN. Yup. I said it.  And you know what after the release, I got up and went to church and had a liberating time in the LORD.  :o). 

I won't go into detail with this post as I've much to say but I must run and enjoy my day.  The conversation will continue when I return later this evening and you better be ready because I'm ready to expose.

MYSELF that is. That's all for now but you heard it hear first from the Glass Girl where all her flaws are up and out on display.

Transformation: 2 Corinthians 5:17

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ they are a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all thing have become new.

I have my stilettos on, my dress is hugging all that God has given me (without a body magic no less), makeup is flawless and I have a mind to worship the Lord.  I want to corporately worship him and tell him with my loudest "hallejuh" that I am in agreement with all he has to say.  I get out of my car and I proceed to the front door of the church and I am greeted with a stare so cold I need an old fashioned quilt and a small room heater to warm the chills that have been sent my way.. While my mind is telling me to turn around and forget the looks I receive, I subconciously tug a bit on my hemline and continue on into the church. Hmmm.. should I sit at the front so I don't miss the word or should I stay by the door should something jump off - whatever my thoughts were they are pushed to the side because the usher just handed me a piece of cloth.  What the hell is this and what does she what me to do with it?  What lady? A lap scarf? 1-2-3-4-5-6-7... OK.. Maybe I'm wrong and you know what I haven't been here long. So fine! I'll put this thing across my lap. Worship is nice. The songs they're singing are making me feel all good; but for the life of me, I can't stop thinking about why I had to be told to put something across my legs.  (I personally believe I have great legs. Shout out to mom and dad.)  Sorry.. Back to the story.  I'm sure that now that the pastor is up, the message is good but I'm really just ready to go. Service over - GOOD because I'm drained.  OH hell, here comes the mean ole usher - I guess she think I'm taking this lap scarf home with me and she wants to get it back before the next fly sister walks in here.  Fine!  I didn't want it in the first place. Say what?  In your church we don't wear shirts that short or pants for that matter. It's disrespect to the MOG (Man of God aka Pastor) and for the POG (People of God). You don't say.. Wait a minute is this lady telling me... Hold up.. Did she just say I shouldn't wear makeup? Wait, did she just say that I look like a street walker? Did she just ask me how am I to be used by God with all the distractions, I'm making? Oh I feel like I need to "Say Something" but my momma told me to respect my elders.  I have got to get outta here. Maybe church is not for me after all. 

and cut.. Was this some fake rendition of what goes in the church? Nope this is a playback on one of my earlier church experiences and I can vividly remember that I left my house with the intention to give praise to the Lord and left out feeling beat up and questioning whether or not church was the answer for me.

The memory has made me upset all over again because I know that God loves me regardless of what I wear. I wanted to touch on 2 Corinthians 5:17 but I really don't feel like it now.  Right now, I just want to feel good.  I'm not gonna play some worship song but what I will do is play something that makes me get up and shake my butt a lil..  And I won't even apologize for the inapropriately dressed women that are in the video.. LOL.. Enjoy because I am... 

I look GOOD and you probably do too!

That's all for now but you heard it hear first from the Glass Girl where all her flaws are up and out on display.

Well what do I say?

So I'm all gunho and ready to let it all hang out and my hands got sweaty and my mouth got dry and all the topics that I wanted to address vanished from my mind.  Should I talk about sex? Oh Lawd! I'm definitely gonna be condemned about that topic. Should I talk about things that I've witnessed in the church? Wait did I forward this blog to the church folk. Do I talk about the very thing that's going through my mind? Oh there are so many things flowing, where do I start? Oh let's say do I dare talk about issues like Oh God, I'm sleeping with the Pastor and both the deacons and by gosh Sis. Usher too... Sike.. I'm not doing either but I'm just saying you clutched them pearls and probably had the Tea Party on speed dial.. LOL  All I'm saying is I'm stuck.

It hasn't even been 24 hours and I'm already second guessing myself.  Didn't the good book say that there is no condemnation in Christ?  Hmmm.. Let me pull up the scripture.. Definitely don't want to be putting it out there and its out of context.

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:1-4

I am in Christ so I'm telling all those who are carrying boat loads of condemnation to throw at me to kick rocks.  Because and we both don't want bible study today but that means that I am set free from the Mosaic Law, Christ's death paid my penalty of death and all my sin was condemned with Jesus on the cross.. Now I can shout right now on that but I won't because all this makes me remember why this blog is important to me and you.

I have the FREEDOM and LIBERTY (thanks friend) to battle with my flesh and be honest and open about it and not feel guilty about what you will think about me.  I guess I had more to say than I thought.

Well that's all for now. I might post another something later this evening but you heard it hear first from the Glass Girl where all her flaws are up and out on display.

Introduction

Well here it is, the blog that joins the sinner on life's journey. Yup that's me! I'm a sinner saved by grace and I have chosen to share my experiences with you. So  let's cut to the chase and let you know the details on who I am.

Who is this blogger?

I am a believer in Christ who is seriously tired of S"aints" that want to send me to the pits of hell for the struggles or thorns in my flesh that I deal with on a daily basis.  I go to church pretty much everytime the doors are open and have been in church since I was a small girl.  I believe that the bible is inspired by God, infallible and inerrant. I am secure in my relationship with Christ and there is nothing that will change that.  I have very traditional views and am very much flawed.  I'm not married and I don't have kids but look forward to the day that I will be both wife and mother.  My moniker is "Glass Girl" as I will forever keep it transparent with you.

What is the purpose of this blog?

This blog is to encourage people to establish and/or strengthen relationships with Christ. It is also a serious look at the life of a believer who has no doubt that my end will lead me straight to Heaven's door where I will be welcomed by Christ with open arms.  Will it sound churchy sometimes? Yes!  Will it make you clutch your pearls? I hope so!  Will it uplift and edify?  One of its main goals.

What I won't tolerate?
Balant Disrepect

Eventually you will find out more about me but as I go along if I need to give you more insight, I will let you know immediately.  I welcome topics to discuss so feel free to email me at transparencyfromthepew@gmail.com.  If you see typos and grammatical errors, know it was my alter ego that took over the blog on that day. OK.  Let's go...